Jengkel.

Its not a mistake to ask me such question IF ONLY you are really close to me.

" Akak ade kawan laki-laki solo tak saya nk kenal? "

APEKAH??

Dahla soalan mukaddimah macam aku ni suspek jenayah. HEH.

Terdesak sangat ke die?

I replied her with a simple answer.

" Kawan-kawan akak yang solo pun akak tak tertolong dik. Inikan pula nak tolong orang lain. Kalau ada pun dah jadi laki /tunangan orang ".

Maaf lah. Saya tersentap dengan soalan cepu emas anda yang tidak kena pada masa dan tempatnya.

Setahun sudah berlalu..

21 Dec 2008.

He was born at about 3.27am. After having 1 and a half hour intermittent painful contractions. I only spent about 45 minutes in the labor room, then he came out to see the real world. And for the first time, I saw him. My own flesh blood. My son.

21 December 2009

A one year old boy. The pain already went away and I can not even remember what it was like. Amazing right?

Happy Birthday my son.

We love you so much. With all of our heart.

You have completed our life.

Membesarlah dengan sihat dan cergas.

Jadi anak yang soleh dan berguna, taat pada Allah. Patuh pada agama.

Ketahuilah anakku,

Kasih sayang kami bukan sedikit.

Yours truthfully,

Mommy and Daddy.

22nd December 2009.

Hanya manusia biasa..

I am not a robot. Atau mungkin malaikat. Saya hanya manusia biasa. Ingatkan saya kalau saya terlupa. Hari ini, saya sangat sedih. Sedih. Fullstop.

Hate to be under stress!!

Do I really like what I am doing now? And the answer is DEFINITELY NO!! Hmpphh.. so friends, could you please teach me on how to LOVE AND LIKE the thing that I am doing right now? It has been a year and I couldn't even see any POSITIVE sign in myself saying that...... ' Ahh ..I really like this!!!..This is what I am looking for all this while!!'

I know, it's hard to get something that we really love much. But at least previously I was able to overcome this kind of feeling. Unfortunately not for this one. Clue?? It's all about work. How la ya?

Or

Do I have to see a phsycologist? So that I probably can found any good sign and my potential in doing this job? I dunno BUT orang lain ada masalah yang lebih besar kan? So, berlaku adillah pada orang yang ada masalah yang lebih besar.

Hmmppphh..

I am totally confused!!

HELP!!

Kalau la umur saya panjang, saya akan berhadapan dengan apa yang sedang saya lakukan sekarang ni for another 29 YEARS??!! OMG!!

Can I SURVIVE?? I mean for another 29 YEARS!!!ISK!!

Dah ready ke??

Ramai pulak yang tanye...'ko ni bila nk tambah ni nem???'..bertanya dengan buat-buat muka tak berapa nk paham...'tambah ape pulak?'...'tambah anak laaaaaaa'...aku tersengih macam kerang busuk.

Huh??? tambah anak?? ..Bila?? Ntah...Ready dah ke?? Macam tak je..kalau ikut KPI kami 2011 ...tapi...........macam belum betul2 bersedia. Hmphhhh....

What happened to my inner strenght??

Kenapa saya kurang semangat, kekuatan serta kecekalan untuk terus bekerja?? Adakah ini tandanya saya kena berenti kerja and duduk je umah jaga anak n rumahtangga??? ( buat bisnes utk tolong suami la kan sikit2 dr duk sj :P)





Semua ni jadi after saya bersalin. Masa tgh mengandung tak la selemah sekarang. Ke hulu ke hilir dengan perut yang boyot. Macam2 training saya hadir. Tapi pas bersalin jadi MALAS..isk!! x senonoh kan?? I am trying hard to fight this feeling!! I need to WAKE UP!! Gunakan potensi yang ada so dat saya boleh perform and buat dengan SEHABIS BAIK!!..



Ni sudah bulan November. Saya kena selesaikan satu tugas yang sepatutnya dah selesai bulan lepas.!!! Sebelum bos kasi due date, adalah lebih baik saya kasi due date terlebih dahulu ..MINGGU DEPAN KENA SELESAIKAN JUGAK!! ANYHOW BY HOOK OR BY CROOK!!







Kawan2..sila kasi saya semangat!!! :P Need your support..:)





Azam untuk tahun hadapan?? banyak sangat!!!!!!!!!! saya cerita in the nest entry ok?? ;)

Dikala demam dan tak sihat..

Farah dah sound suoh rajin2 update blog..hehhehe..konon tgh berlagak rajinla ni..:p

Hmmm..Kesahnya Awal demam panas cecah 39.6 o C ..mak bapak die mlompat terkejut tros bwk g ER hosp sg buloh..blk dr spital lymph nodes on his left hand side bengkak..must be unfection sumwhere in his body tp paed awal kate its a Mumps...( due to my viro consultant , Prof C ..mumps dah jarang skrg ni kecuali kalau anak kite merayau2 main luar umah..lgpun kt umah bbsitter Awak xde yg kena beguk)..xtaula mn satu betul plak ni. Awal pun blum dpt MMR vaccination lg sbb die bru 10 mths...

Few days after demam maka naekla rashes satu badan yg amatla truk( nk mandi pun ngamuk2 sbb pedih kot) n paed kate it was just rashes due to high fever..tp bbsitter Awal kate it was measles..ntah i pun xpnh tgk measle camne rupenye..uuhuu..

Skrg ni dah recover dr dmm tp batuk2 plak..sekali lg bwk jpe paed n Dr kate dh kena broncholitis..so kena amek antibiotik n ubay cair kahak- vantoline. Hope Awal akan cpt sembuh..kesian die dh susut 500g ( from 9.9kg to 9.4kg).. Krg minum susu lately but bubur n bfeed as usual..okla dr xnk makan pape kan...so kt bwh ni few pics takeb during his sickness..sy plak dpt MC dr paed Awal 4 hari y'all..hoho sgtla bmurah hati kasi MC ..tx a doc ;)



Tummy penuh ngan rashes


Muka


Tdo dlm demam...


Menahan sakit


Pas blk dr ER

Mommy tahu baby mommy is a hero!!! ..cepat sembuh ye nak...:)

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